Sadness is a Gesture

by APHRA

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1.
Honey 03:59
Better days When I snuggled up to Carlo The day his father died And we kissed While the moon smiled upon us He could tell I was his child But gone are the tears Gone are the days Tonight Gone are the tears Gone are the days All the trouble Like the fake paystubs And the chips that paid my rent ohh ohh ohh We wait lock ourselves in the bedroom I’m not leaving your side this time Gone are the tears Gone are the days Tonight God bless the haunted They keep the stories alive God bless the monuments we Fragile men make may they stand tall oh
2.
Geranimo 05:19
Baby let me sleep You can wake me up if you want to I'll say who I am, I'll say who I am, I'll say who I am If you don't take that away from me I'll put on my prayers I'll make you breakfast, I'll make your love I'll make your bed I'll sound the alarms, there's fascists everywhere And then I'll lose you to social drinking I've got an opera of feeling don't want to make it regret Cause I'm a daughter of a revolution, gotta keep my head up You're demanding exposure, I'm demanding respect Why can't you want what’s already here And your brain is so well lit But your mind is on a wave Do you really want to know, (Keep breathing, say something, cause everyone’s watching) What's keeping me this way? "Geranimo" I need a T.V or a mirror or a window, give me something Cause I'm looking to save my skin not my soul. And I need you and I want you but we're not in love Within two showers and you’re gone. Got my license inspected but no where to go I could trade this hard lovin for something more. In the valley or darkness will you yell my name, Or will you just make a mess of my body again? I'm wide awake Am I? Am I making it all up? X2
3.
Would You 02:38
If I’m perceived as reckless If I refuse to read the news If I get up to change the station Til I’m in a better mood Would you tell how I’m feeling Would you do what you want to Would you love me, love me, would you? You’re the traffic outside my window You’re the stuff I spread on toast When I choose to sit in silence It’s you I hear the most Don’t tell me what I’m feeling I’ll just do what I want to Would you love me, love me, would you? The older generations they didn’t get choose But if you asked me tomorrow Oh I’ll probably say I do We all need a revolution But we’re too busy making do Would you love me, love me, would you? Alone isn’t so lonely When you realize what’s true That nothing really matters And there’s nothing you can do But let’s make the best of something Let’s do what we want to Oh love me, love me, would you? Just love me, love me, would you? Will you love me, love me, would you?
4.
Oh Peter 02:14
Oh Peter, your love keeps the moon full Your hourglass always stays full We’re taking turns with reversal Our hands grow tired You leave no paper trail You’re always looking for a crawl space under her floorboards There are no pictures We were never yours Oh your love keeps the moon full (Just one more...)
5.
Rooms 03:54
I've cried in strange places I sip on my tears till they taste sweet Now my legs they rust My skin slips off in your hands you count Every bone but there's still So many rooms to haven't seen yet I'm taking you high You're taking me low Fell into you against my will You left such sweetness ringing in my ear Now my legs, they rust My skin slips off in your hands you count Every bone but there's still So many rooms to haven't seen yet I'm taking you high You're taking me low
6.
Happy 04:56
Sometimes I don’t think you don’t let me in Cause you’re afraid you’ll say something That’ll make me want to not want to sleep with you again I wanna know what you’re struggling with I’ll never tell you to go see a therapist I just want to see you Happy I’ve got reasons to love you So it’s easy to stay I really miss you in the evening Sort of miss you all day I’ve spent so long being So afraid Of you and cliches If we go out and you don’t wanna stay We can leave, you don’t have to explain Even though I think you spent Too much time alone We made so many rules to this game But maybe one day I’ll meet your family You’ll meet my mom though she’s crazy With a capital C I’ve got reasons to love you So it’s easy to stay I really miss you in the evening Sort of miss you all day I’ve spent so long being So afraid Of you and cliches I wanna know what you’re struggling with I won’t tell you to go see therapist I just want to see you Happy
7.
I said I like you and that’s what I meant That’s why I asked you for a cigarette The way you said you didn’t smoke I said neither do I I only drink when I’m depressed When I’m bored or having fun with friends Marijuana, I don’t wanna if I have to pay a cent Do you still like me now? Am I no different than the rest? Sadness is a just a gesture that my loneliness makes You may be phony but I can’t tell I’ll try to love you but I’ll probably fail Think I’m crazy because I’m convinced everyone else knows how But I can’t wait to see your face In the pale light of the TV screen I’m only shaking because it’s the only way my body can tell this is real Do you still like me now? Am I no different than the rest? Sadness is a just a gesture that my loneliness makes Are you still with me now? Did you miss the point again? Sadness raises the questions that we are afraid to make Same story nothing new I tried my best to not be mad at you A lovers quarrel is nearly as hard as a friendship on the rocks Do you still like me now? Am I no different than the rest? Sadness is a just a gesture that my loneliness makes Are you still with me now? Did you miss the point again? Sadness raises the questions that we are afraid to make Do you still like me now?

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"Most people would listen to my songs and assume it’s about boy meets girl, boy breaks girl’s heart, girl cries. But these songs are actually about my family and the crippling confusion and heartbreak addiction causes."

Under the moniker APHRA (pronounced AF-RA), Philadelphia’s Rebecca Waychunas has meticulously crafted a left-of-pop persona that infuses experiences of personal struggle with both the grit of the DIY/ punk scene and the layered instrumentation of her electronica contemporaries - recalling the likes of a Coexist era The xx mixed with
Mitski. Sadness is a Gesture took over two years to write, record, and produce. In both the songs’ evolution and physical manifestation, they trace a journey working through confusion by way of repeated mental and emotional breakdowns to immense personal growth and clarity.

Waychunas started writing songs in high school as a way to make sense of the instability around her. Her openness about the traumatizing effect that drug and alcohol addiction has had on familial and personal relationships serves as the foundation for the sonically diverse tracks. "All of these songs were actually written with a particular person or relationship in mind in which addiction played a huge part,” Waychunas explains. “I don’t personally struggle with any substance issues, but I have realized that I am quite drawn to people who suffer from them. I’ve learned who I am, and who I am in relation to the people closest to me, most intimately through the process of recording this project."

She considers herself lucky to live in a city that offers such a supportive underground music scene. Philadelphia has allowed Waychunas to grow as both a songwriter and performer, and collaborate with artists across several different mediums. Her immersion in these communities has helped hone her proficiency in video production and dance choreography. The release of Sadness is a Gesture serves as both a reflection and expression of APHRA’s deeply personal and creative pursuits.

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released February 28, 2017

Thanks to Eric, Alex, Megan, Asher, & Inherent Sounds

All songs written, produced, and mixed by Rebecca Waychunas
Eric Bogacz co-produced 'Rooms' and 'Oh Peter' and programmed percussion for 'Oh Peter'
Jack Zafares played guitar on 'Oh Peter'
Mastered by Alex Santalli at Spice House Sound
Vinyl mastered by Infrasonic Sound
Design by Rechelle Payne

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Under the moniker APHRA, Philadelphia’s Rebecca Waychunas has meticulously crafted a left-of-pop persona that infuses experiences of personal struggle with both the grit of the DIY/ punk scene and the layered instrumentation of her electronica contemporaries. ... more

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